A Marriage After His Heart

My journey and life unscripted as I transition from the role of a single mom living for God to a newlywed trying my best at blending and expanding my family, all while pursing a marriage after God and my husband's heart. Join us on this journey!

Friday, May 8, 2009


In the business of my new life as a brand new mommy, I didn't realize how fast time flies! Today Miss Graci ( with an "i" now, I just found out this is a cooler way to shorten her name) has turned a month old. Time has flown so quickly that I actually had to sit down for quite a while today and think of milestones. As I reflected I remembered that we had this sonogram taken about a month or so before she was born and it is so funny to see how her habits and personality formed in the womb have transitioned over to her life in this brand new world of hers. I can't wait until she starts cooing and gurgling. I really can't wait until she smiles and reaches for me. Right now, I am in love with her gazing at me. It confirms the bond we share as mother and daughter. I know undoubtedly that she recognizes me. She knows who I am. She feels loved, safe, and secure. I am mommy and right now, I am her favorite thing on this earth ( next to milk of course!).

This first picture was taken at around 33 weeks, and we joked about how much she slept like a little princess, even on the sonogram video, we could not get her whole face because she kept her arm up in as if she were just soooo tired!Imagine how tickled we are every time we catch her sleeping now, just as she had been the whole time she was snuggled inside my belly! Its amazing how they don't really change much from being a developing little person, to being a real live "born baby" as her big sister calls it.I will say that I have created a diva! She loves to be hugged and snuggled, which leaves my days pretty much centered around her. I hate to used the term "spoiled rotten" but I have spoiled her rotten. We have got to break this holding habit, because it doesn't really marry well with taking care of the home now does it? But for now, I will just soak in the new-ness as I am so grateful to have the opportunity to be at home with her, all to myself. I will admit that it does get frustrating when I have something to do, and she falls asleep in my arms and when I lie her down it never fails seconds later I hear her cry, I pick her up and of course the crying ceases. All in all, I think about how great of a gift it is that being in my arms is enough to soothe her. That attachment to me, while sometimes can drive me a little crazy, it is a beautiful thing.
As you can see, her shirt says Hug me:

So i oblige with love and kisses!

Happy Mother's Day to you all. I hope you have the most wonderful weekend! Stay Blessed and Encouraged!

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

God's Blessings During Colic, Thrush and Baby Transition

This picture pretty much has summed up my nights and early mornings over the last week or so. Out of nowhere it seems that Gracie developed a touch of colic, and a horrid case of oral thrush. When I say horrid, I mean horrid and it seems to have came out of nowhere and rapidly developed over the weekend. Needless to say she was one unhappy,tired, and irritable little baby. I think the worse feeling in the world, is the inability to comfort your newborn baby, or any of your children rather, but it's something about a itty bitty baby that just melts your heart when they can't be comforted. I learned however, that there is light at the end of that tunnel. I learned ( what I already knew, but I guess forgot??) that God feels the same way about us. It isn't until we allow him to comfort us that we and our itty bitty babies are comforted. I learned that (I could easily try out for American Idol just as long as tryouts are held while I am in the shower) my itty bitty baby thinks I have a wonderful voice, and my non American Idol voice soothes her. I also learned that along with Gripe Water, the best invention in the world is this thing right here:
My beloved Moby Wrap. It is by far one of the best investments that I have made thus far. Who knew that a long piece of fabric would bring me so much peace and comfort. Thanks ladies for recommending it to me! My other favorite thing would be the yard sale steal I got this weekend on this right here:
A Medela breast pump! May I add that it came with all that you see here and then some, did I say for a steal? Did I also mention that it was practically new? All I had to do was some very heavy sterilizing and it works just fine. I posted before the baby was born that I wanted one of these. We couldn't afford one, but a friend of mine, who just loves perusing garages sales in gated communities went to a neighborhood sale on Sat and she called me about this and when she mentioned the price, lets just say I dropped all and went out in the rain to pick this baby up. Now my dear husband won't feel left out of the feeding process. And he can do more than this:

Did I mention this is why we need the Moby!

All in all it has been a tedious couple of weeks, but God has seen us through it. I am learning how to spread out more to my whole family and not have it be just about me and the baby. I will admit, this has been rather trying for me. But in crying out to God and his faithfulness to teach and train me, we are weathering this transition quite well. (mother and baby graphic taken from art.com)

Psalm 73:1Truly God is good to Israel, even to such as are of a clean heart.