Still no Lil Miss :( but as we type, I am in labor. I am hoping the contractions speed up and intensify to make me dilate just one more centimeter, just one! I am almost in my 39th week and after thinking that she would have been here, I am learning that her personality is one that she will move at her own pace and to the beat of her own music. So I am learning to be patient and also learning how to tolerate pain and discomfort with the right spirit.
On a better note though, the Lord has truly blessed us tremendously in the most unexpected way, not only are we preparing for Lil Miss, we are also moving into a lease home at the same time. We were planning to move out of our apartment this summer, but the Lord opened doors for us that we were never expecting with this opportunity not only that He has given us favor with our current landlord and his family there seems to be a genuine relationship and bridge building process occurring between our family. Our goal is to be moved in with the major things so that Lil Miss, doesn't have to ever grace the grounds of our apartment complex. Things here have been getting worse, our nice little family friendly complex has changed over the past few months with new management who is more lenient with allowing people to move in. What was once a very family friendly complex has turned into fraternity row, and my children have been exposed to things that children should never see. Now they have space, and a yard, and their own rooms. Through this move we have been able to minister and show them how we are stepping out on faith with this move, and how God is blessing us by setting things in an order which aligns with what we prayed for to the letter. This move has increased their faith and I can see them deepening their own relationship with God.
To see them so excited is very emotional, also this is an emotional time for me and my dh. Since leaving home at 18 I have either lived in a dormitory, military barracks, my parents home, or apartments. Same with Mark, this will be our first home and it is beautiful to share this dream with him, to start this new chapter of our lives together and to provide our children with the dream of stability and childhood innocence that a home brings.
I hope to have good news to post soon regarding the Lil Miss. Keep us in your prayers as I am nearing the end stretch and running low on patience, cheerfulness, and energy and frighting the urge to be consumed by irritability, low tolerance, and impatience. God has been faithful though, to step in and give the boost and increase when I need it. I know He will get me through this delivery and move, I know that he is the God of all grace and He loves me enough to continuously bestow an unlimited supply of it whenever I call upon him and request it. He will do the same for all of us if only we think to ask. Be Blessed and Encouraged! Until next time....